When i was creating the motion graphics piece “The Klees” for Amanda’s class, i was making a intro for a fictional TV show. In it i wanted to put in a lot of queer themes because I myself am transgender and as a content creator and a consumer of media, always welcome positive LGBT+ representation. I was going to put two women embracing romantically in one scene and a very obviously butch couple in another. Heck, the main character was a trans man, a fact that was going to be hinted in in the original trailer. All of this was cut though for the same sad reason. Relatives. Quite similar to the people put in charge of the Censorship Bureau established in the early 1900’s, my relatives have made clear that if I didn’t want to get shit from the higher ups, I would have to self censor the content i was creating. But, much like the directors and actors of the 50’s, I found a way to sneak around these restraints and put in some underlying queer themes that are obvious if you know what your looking for. Things like making the two female silhouettes face each other in a picture frame portrait that at that time was only taken of couples. Or have a woman standing at a window stare longingly down at the patio when a man and woman are talking. If you didn’t look carefully you might portray the scene as the woman looking jealously onwards at the man entertains another woman, but the artist (my) intention was the woman’s attention was focused not on the man, but the woman he was talking to, seething in jealousy at the casual ease with which he was able to flirt with her, free of fear.
Everyones art is the result of the collective knowledge of the time (diaspora), that’s why my art style has changed so drastically from when i was a kid to now, its what i was exposed to. you can tell just by looking at some of my art what parts of other people’s work have touched me (steven universe, kingdom hearts, assorted anime) Martin Heidegger said it best when he compared art, more specifically drawing, to not etching pencil to paper, but to obtaining water from a well, or “drawing” from the collective knowledge to create something unique. Art doesn’t come from nowhere and no matter how abstract you work gets, and no matter how vehemently you purport the complete originality of your work, that idea didn’t come from nothing. It may be embarrassing to look back on your old art and see with painful clarity what fad influence your rash of anthropomorphic monstrosities when you were twelve, but I like to see them as a nice point to compare my art of today to.
my work has improved in terms of both more believable proportions to incorporating more fluidity and movement in my figures due to this distribution of collective knowledge, which is what i would hope is any artists wish for their work, for it to grow better with time and experience
i would say that a lot of my work spawns from a need to please, not only other people but also myself. i can say with full confidence that the whole purpose of me making art in the first place is to make other people happy. this might stem from my own insecurities and past traumas but that doesn’t make it any less of a noble pursuit in my opinion. In highschool, art was my identity. Much like Warhol, I was a quiet, socially awkward kid so the only way it seemed i could get people to notice or interact with me was if i showed them my art. People who didn’t even know my name knew that i was the art kid, and it was a title i embraced with pride, because it was one people gave to me out of a place of happiness. Me and Warhol alike used art to connect with people in a way that we couldn’t do with our mouths.
The whole reason i want to become an animator in the first place is to inspire in other people the same sense of excitement and joy that was instilled in me by work of the artists before me. I believe there is no more noble pursuit than using what you’ve been given to try and make the world a bit of a better place. That’s why my dream in future is so lofty, because i thinks can do it. Therefore it is my responsibility to try.